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Three days ago my beautiful golden retriever Sammy lost his fight with cancer. A month before we did not even know he was sick then one day he had trouble breathing and we rushed him to the emergency hospital. The lymp nodes in his neck were swelling so they put him on antibotics and he recovered. We took him to our vet to find out what had made his nodes swell after blood panel, e-xray and ultra sound they descovered a mass on his liver. Nothing surgical could help at this time he had no cancer cells in his blood and every organ was working as it should and we kept him on anti-botics, we also put him on viamin K,SAMe, and vitamin C. A week later I awoke to find him unable to get up so I took him back to the vet. We did all the test over again and found his liver to be 3/4 full of something we were sure was cancer. While they were taking the x-ray Sammy wanted to get up so the vet placed him on the floor and he started to walk in cirles and could no longer walk in a straight line so I helped him back to his bed where he layed. We knew something had now invaded his brain and all hope was gone, so I had to make the hardest decision in my life to put him down. I feel like I lost my best friend that day and I miss him greatly. Even with three other dogs our house is so empty. There is a huge whole in my heart that my sweet old guy use to fill. I think about him all the time I dream about him too. He is the last thing I think about at night and the first thing I think about in the morning. I remember the first time I saw him he belonged to a co-worker that had recently been divorced , she had to move off the farm and couldn't keep him any longer so he was at her nephews. She brought him to work one night and I brought Rusty my first golden to see if they got along and they did so I decided to adopt him but he didn't come with us that night although he wanted to. When I did bring him home he jumped over the seat and sat on my lap as I was driving down the interstate, that was the begaining of him trying to be by my side constantly. Sammy was 5 1/2 when he came to live in my heart . We had many wonderful times together with my other two goldens, swimming ,fishing ,walking ,playing catch and just being together. They were my stress relievers and my life. We had birthday partys , went trick or treating and opened Chistmas presents together. I spent years trying to beat the odds of cancer in goldens but I lost and my lheart is full of sadness, Sammy I will always love you and always remember you. The forever home I promised you was in my heart. We will be together again some day 
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| So sorry. It's so hard to lose a beloved dog. No dog should ever get cancer. staffordmom
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I'm gonna have to give you a virtual hug! My dog was put down because of his suffrage with cancer. He was getting to the point where every joint harmed him and couldn't eat or drink just cry. I had to take him to the vet where he was diagnosed with cancer and was put down on May 5, 2010. Cancer tears us apart from our beloved ones. I'm still trying to cope with mine and your beloved Sammy had just left the earth to Rainbow Bridge where our fur babies enjoy the freedom of no pain.
I know I sound like a book but it sometimes feels good to know that they are not suffering but the pain lingers of them not being with us. You are not the only one, dear. I am also crying with you.
Like you said in your post that someday you'll meet Sammy again AND you will! My younger brother underwent a scoping so he had to receive anesthetics to put him to sleep. Before he drifted away in deep sleep he saw our dalmatian, Lucky sitting next to the bed he was laying in. Lucky had died in 1999 of severe liver damage due to poisoning. When my brother was in deep sleep he saw nothing but darkness and Lucky licking his face and playing with him until he woke up. I was at my brother's bedside when he woke up shouting for Lucky and crying. Lucky had been watching him because my brother was supposed to be diagnosed with pancreatic cancer but the scoping results were negative. We believe that Lucky was there to cure him.
I know I may sound insane but I'm trying to prove a point: our beloved fur babies are constantly watching us. When we are in danger or scared they are there. We just got to be strong and smile. It's okay to cry - its better to let out the pain that builds up inside us. The first day of Baby's death - I took a pillow and lay my face in it and screamed. Crazy no? But after a few moments..I felt a tad bit better. Not telling you to do the same. But it was one way I coped with my loss. I also began to write, write, and write. Writing does some good for the soul. Write down memories because one day you'll look back and smile. Its get's easier and easier as time goes.
I hope I helped some instead of inflicting more pain. I really do feel your pain. So in ending this I found this little piece that I just have to share with you:
Remember me always, but do no grieve for me too long. I have tried always to comfort you in times of sorrow, and have made every effort to add joy to your life. I never wanted to cause you pain.
Peace for me is certain now, and I suspect I will have eternal sleep in the earth I have loved so well.
Please, after your period of grieving for me, make room in your heart for another. You are the kind of human being that should always have a friend like me to love. Your kind and gentle heart should not be wasted on my memory for too long.
I know your new friend will never take my place, because we had something very special. It may not be quite the same, but a new devoted and loving companion will in time, become special in their own way.
You loved me very much and I loved you. My spirit will always be with you, and no matter how deep my sleep, my grateful heart will always remember you.
~ Author Unknown
Once again..I'm sending my warm regards to your loss!
~Katie and Baby the Pug
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Oh and by the way:
Baby had the same symptoms of walking around in circles. Go into seizures. Not focusing. It's just terrifying what diseases can do. =(
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| thankyou so much for that thought . Sorry I have not checked my posting in some time trying to get over Sammy which hasn't worked very well. The tears still flow for him and to make matters worse yesterday I found out my 6 year old golden has lymphoma. If she's lucky it will be type A or B and she could still have 2 years with chemo. If not maybe 3 months. Chemo starts Monday. These goldens are not related and the young one is from a good blood line with no history of cancer. I cann't understand that.
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that's so sad.... my grandpa's dog died from cancer as well! That was one of the only tims I've seen him cry your right though you'll see him again!
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I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. We recently lost an Aussie to cancer. He wasn't my dog, he was a friend's dog but I loved him as much as I would love my own dog, so I know how you feel. Again, very sorry for your loss, just remember he's in a better place now and out of pain
Rest in Peace Bear-Bear, we'll love you forever
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