I wish I could agree with that but I got a big "kick me sign" on the back of my shirt. I just wanted a true friend so badly...I thought I had one but I guess I didnt. Im just having a bad day. My brother just completley hates me now. I have no idea why. He goes to Virgina to search for our sister who is nothing but a jail person drug addict and spends all that money on gas to go there when he cant even spend 5 minutes over here. I use to be so close to him and now since he got married we are so far away. I won't lie, I know people don't like me. I just feel so low and sad and hurt right now. I just lost missmolly-lover as a friend all over an opinion and who knows whatelse.

Star: *Proud Eskie/golden mix*

I herd a song tonight on the radio, another girl sings about a boy. She sees his face in every space
every room, and I know that if I turn around you won't be there. If I close my eyes, will you be there?
I don't wanna lose your face, and I don't wanna wake up one day and not remember what
time erased. I don't wanna turn around cause im not scared of what love gave me and took away
and I don't wanna lose your face. I've got a photo of you in my bedroom and I hope it never falls. I
hope I never lose that feelin' I use to get when you called. I don't wanna lose your face.
 
- Taylor Swift

*~♦ ♦~*

Look Carrie, are you going to let some jerk just bring you down because of something they did to you or how you felt? If that is so then they were no friend to begin with. If you are referring to what I think you are look, people can't always be there to IM. I know myself half the time I am on my messenger but I am not actually at it. Nothing makes me more annoyed then having someone keep iming me saying “I know you are there" or "whatever, ignore me" and get all mad. I get that a lot with a friend of mine. Every time I am on she sends and IM and if I don't reply she keeps sending it. Get the idea in your head, if they don't reply they don't want bothered right now. It’s also a guy thing to not reply.  Don't get bent out of shape over it.

As for your brother, he has issues. You said before there is a 13 or around that age difference. You said your sister is only 5 years older than him? Well maybe that is the reason. Age is a big part of the world and who you talk to or get along with. Sometimes brothers can just be jerks. We don't want to show that we care. It really is a guy thing to not show our emotions. It’s just how we are.

Now don't ever think you are big loser. You are far from that. If anyone thinks that ANYONE is a loser they are the real loser. Nobody is a loser. You are a good person and we all have our mistakes. You made yours. I forgive you, and if others can't well then they got issues beyond any that you or I have combined. If anyone is going to be ticked off at you for being defensive, this is their issue, not yours. I think you are a good friend and I think everyone needs to stick together and help one another and make a great community. I know I can be a little racy at times but on the inside, I care about people.

About 3 years ago my friend Brandon and I got into this stupid fight over this girl. We wouldn't talk to each other all over "who saw her first." He told me he was going to make sure that she never looked at me and about spreading lies and rumors around the whole school. Dude it sucked like crap worrying how many friends were going to turn on me, I was worried sick. Don't worry about what some dude is going to say about you or think of you. Hold your head up high. They are making a jerk (lack for a better word) of themselves and sooner or later people will learn the truth. You don't owe or have to prove anything to these people. He did tell everyone this lie about me physically beating my little sister and how I was an abuser. I lost about every friend but maybe one or two who believed me. About 3 months later the girl was old news, she had a boyfriend and Brandon was over her. He apologized and I wasn't going to hold anything against him. He just made a fool of himself instead of me. Now we are still best friends. I did learn to say I don't like the same girls as he does lol!

Point being, don't feel low. Things will get better. We all have our days. What exactly is it that you are apologizing for? Your PM to me was a little foggy and hard to understand and I am concerned about you. Also remember, getting even with a person will only make matters worse. It is better just to talk it out the mature way. Even if you’re raging mad you want to “beat” them up.

----------- Sandy my 1 year old labrador-----------

i totally agree to what he had to say and i have been there with people and had this happen to me from other.if they dont like me well it could be them and they have issues, i have been there with my brother he is 3 years older than me and i am like the pesky little sister who want to be around him all the time.but now he doesnt have the time for me unless some one in the family is sick then he wants to talk.i think alot to do is because its a guy thing and they have to be tough and big bad and every thing and they wonder why we women dont hunderstand them and its true.i just wish they would let us know how they feel and others too.i have lost alot of people over things now i look and realize its was met to be and some i learned it wasnt anything i did it was the other and i walked away like okay it was me and when sat thought about it  them not me.with family its so hard cause alot of that is them having issues i know from experience, i am going threw that right now and i learning it not worth dealing with them till they get over their issues

if you thought you were your totally mistaken, all these people care about you, and so do i!!!

i just hate it when my friends get upset, and i might say this a thousand times but your not a loser!!!

thrust me getting back at some one is not smart!!!

i've tried it doesn't work!!!

and guys can be jerks!!! (sorry to all the nice guys out there)

your a totally awesome person and saying what you said about yourself takes a stronge person to say that about themselves, and i totally admire you for that!!!