starry*boy (7/14/2008)

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I want to apologize to everyone for everything in the past that I have done. I made mistakes, I have made friends and enimies, I have said stuff foolishly because of my anger or my pride. I played lots of people and lied to many. I grew up around a bunch of kids who was always 1st to backstab and I was always use to lies and never trusting people. I was a lonley and still am teenager. I learned to close my heart up and not trust or beleive anyone. I get defensive on my friends, it isn't suppose to be offensive, it is just my way of showing that I care. If I make fun of someone or talk behind there back, its not ment to be mean, I mean it in a caring way. I never has a true friend, I doubt I ever will. This world don't contain any. I have many best friends. I have lied in the past about my age and stuff to protect my identy. As missmolly-lover menchioned about me is true. I am a hiparyot (sp). I just couldn't admit it. Now I might as well tell everyone the truth before someone else does. Sometimes, I can't state how I feel in the right words, I made mistakes everyday. I am sorry I can't be perfect like other people I know. You wanna know something? I lost most of my best friends because of who I am. Maybe I am not ment to have friends. I am sorry everyone. I know some of you cannot forgive my lies, I know some of you will rool your eyes when reading this. You just don't understand how life was for me and still is. Your dog being your only best friend because you cant have friends in regular school because your mother don't like their parents and the only parents they approve of the kid hate you...The biggest reason, I hate people ignoring me and I get defensive like that is because I was ignored all my life. My dad ignored me and my mom dont pay that much attetion to me.

There I said it...I am sorry for my past on here and I am sorry I don't know alot about dogs to provide information. It kills me inside to know that I ain't the smartest person in the world and I am on the top 100 dumbest list. I messed up, Its  prob. to late to ask some of you for  forgivness. I can't promise any of you I can become smart like pudel,junior,dogsrme,rainsmom ect but I can promise that there will be no drama from me. So now that you all know the truth you can forgive me or you can forgive me. I been hurt so many times, I know how to deal with it. I cried so many times the well has run dry. I been lied to over and over, I don't know what the truth is anymore. I use to lie, but I don't anymore. I am so sick of lies.

Thank you for reading this.